Breath ~ Smile - and carry on

Passion For Life

Your hand, looking for mine, groping the dark. And im afraid that i might help you to find...

I breath slowly, barely make a noice. Just like even a small movement could break the thin ice underneath.  How much do i have to bear ? How long do i have to fight against dark flood water.. Even tough id be ready to pay everything for happiness, i still cant own it.
So have years hit their mark on me, almost without noticing, they have eat faith in miracles.
And still with all my powers, after everything, i still want to love, i want to be brave enough.

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In your veins floats bright strengt,
that without noticing blooms then when the sky has been teared apart.
You carry secret within you, and your secret carries you.
Other treasure's of yours, barely are worth it.
When infront of crinkled leaf, you wait someone to pick it up,
they can see the light of thousand suns in your eyes.

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For a moment still, half of the world sleeps on this night so white and cold.
And you wonder how anything can hurt so much? All your best years hit on ground.
Even half of your pain, i cant know how it hurts. All the words hang on air without powers.
But on some morning, i know, you will wake up knowing, you survived.
You are beautiful, even tough you dont feel like that anymore.
And for a moment still, half world sleeps, just for a moment still, until the bright morning will open.

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The worst feeling in the world is knowing,
you did the best you could, but it still wasnt good enough.
I cant tell if its killing me, or making me stronger.

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In this world full of people
there's one killing me...
but how can that same person
be the one who loves me
and whom i love.
If we only die once,
i wanna die with you.

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why does all beautiful disappear ?
i have fall in love with something, that brings me nothing but pain
its killing me slowly, yet still, why i cant let go ?

im your friend, i dont care about the lives you save. I care about your life

You make me smile for the weirdest reasons,
you make me laugh for no reason whatsoever,
But most of all,
you make me love you when im not supposed to love you at all..

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I fell in love the way you fall asleep,
slowly, then all at once

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Love is like snow,
its all about the little things,
they start adding up,
and without noticing
the ground is shining bright white
In same way,
love starts by little things,
and all the little things make big things
and without noticing you start to feel something
and when you look in your heart
you start to realize whats going on

patience is beautiful

Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see, the pain someone feels.

I dont run because i love the feeling of running. I run because it makes me love the feeling of living!

Pleasant Nightmare

My life is like an ocean, sometimes its so stormy that i feel like its going to make all disappear under it. And sometimes its so calm that its almost beautiful.

In same way i could describe my love for you. But in this metaphor your love is the ocean. And loving you id like jumping to the middle of that ocean from boat without knowing how to survive in it. Without knowing how to swim. Like for a moment id forget in all that beauty that i cant swim.

Why? Because just sometimes you want something to be true so badly that you do everything to prove yourself that its true..  But sometimes, even if you would have a bandage on your eyes, it wouldnt stop you from seeing the truth.

In same way i fought for the relationship that i knew wouldnt last nor go anywhere. It was like a sweet lie. I wanted to believe it because i loved the sweetness of it but i hated the way how i knew it wasnt true. Yet still i fought for it to show all that its true, when even i knew myself that i was making a fool of myself. I knew it was a lie, a sweet mistake, a tamned curse.

I have danced with the song that you played, but you keep changing the words. You tried so hard to sabotage our relationship because it was beyond perfect. And now im tired of fighting. I was blind but i can see it now.

The truth is that this love will either drown me while i try to prove it right or than i gotta stop fighting for nothing and rise back to that boat to safe myself from drowning and sure destruction.  Because that is what will happen, this love is not my saviour. It will kill me in the end for sure. It will eat my every chance of happiness and burn me into dust.

But i wont let that happen.  I might have woken up in the middle of rubble. But from the fading light i will fly and rise like phoenix out of the ashes.  You made me go trough hell. You drag me down, but ill rise up to the sky and i will fly. You know it as well as i do, i will get over this. Im finally free.

smallest things matters most ♥